Wednesday, February 25, 2004
Ok then, so i am writing again. Who knows why. I think it must be because i have so little homework tonight. WHICH IS REALLY GOOD BECAUSE ITS ABOUT TIME! Allthough i don't have much to rite about i will ramble about stuff. First i will ramble about all the rehersals for the musical that i will have to be attending and how i am gonna have just about zero time to do any sort of homework etc. But at some point thats ok because i really love doing technical theatre and so i'm excited about being involved in the production which should be quite an extravaganza as it seems. Shit flying in from the cieling and massive set pieces! Wow i really like this thunderstorm. Its really cool to feel the house shaking from all of the thunder. well, i'm getting to the point where i wanna get i bed so 'll have to continue to ramble on later.
DAVE
Posted at 10:44 pm by Mrsnl4082
Monday, February 09, 2004
Ok. So i realize that i haven't written on this mother fucker for quite a while. Which makes total sense to me because i never want to spend my free time writing stuff like this. I think maybe i will more often. Not that i have anythng interesting to say, because particularly today i don't. I hope however that in the near future i will.
Oh well actually i do have one thing that is semi-meaningfull to say, which is what the fuck is going on whith this business with people writing things on people's blogs under false names and saying stuff that is mean. Oh my god. How childish is this. People's lives don't need to be intruded upon by people writing shit like that. It really offends me that people who have issues can't converse directly. Peole should at least no write stuff like that anonymously. actually no people who have issues like this shouldn't even bring them into the public domain. and well i'm on the topic of all of this people just need to stop being mean and childish toward each other. we only live for so long and we should have a good time while doing so
-Dave
Posted at 10:16 pm by Mrsnl4082
Monday, January 12, 2004
Peter- I really didn't appreciate the blog entry that you posted to me. It really hurts me when i struggle everyday with a challenging issue like this that has been the cause of a great deal of sadness for and then i see you write an arrogant message like te one you wrote. I am hurt that you think that i am trying to blame this on you. I am also hurt that you don't have the decency to listen to how i feel and just consider it. The reason i am hesitant to tell people my feelings is because i feel that they will get offended or that the will react like you have. I do not want to make anything your fault i just want to express how i feel. And i haven't even talked to you personaly about how i feel. I think you must have misunderstood what i told laila and constructed something else out of it.
Lets try to have respect for eachother. Lets be sincere and treat ourselves like adults.
Posted at 11:44 pm by Mrsnl4082
Wednesday, January 07, 2004
I don't write philosophical stuff much but this next entry is a very important one for me to write. I want it to be heard and thought about.
I have been having a really great week after getting my missing work taken care of and after figuring out how to use my ipod and playing with the newly installed internet. I'm having a great time. Sadly, this is not the same for my friends. I don't want to pry into other people's personal problems because i realize that they have the right to feel how they will about others and thet have the absolute right to act upon their feelings. I have struggled for the past three years with issues regarding my friends and loosing and gaining friendship. I have learned something through this experience. Friendship is worth so much sacrifice. Friendship is worth so much pain. I learned this leson the hard way.
I really want you guys (Carly,Peter,Annie and Laila) who read this to think about this:
You guys have all been some of the best friends i've ever had my life is so much brighter and my days filled with more joy and laughter because i have you guys. I would do anything to protect what i have.
You all deserve to treat eachother like the good friends youare.
You don't deserve to put yourselves through the fighting and backstabbing It's not worth it. Kepping your friends and respecting them is worth it. It is the greatest feeling to know that you and your friends have the strength in your relationship to get through troubled times.
I ask all of my friends to take a breath, relax and think about what your friends mean to you and as i hope realize that all you have shared and all you will share together is worth saving.
Dave-
Posted at 10:10 pm by Mrsnl4082
Sunday, January 04, 2004
I really hate dealing with all of my this music stuff
I tried to download a song and put it into my ipod, which should be something easy to do but in fact it turns out that ipods are awful pieces of technology that don't let you out songs into them and are only created to ruin people's lives like mine. I realize that i may seem a bit extreme to say all of this but it has reallt been bothering me. I tried for several hours to put one song into it. What a waste of time i have gotten no closer to being ablt to put songs in. And whats very strange is that i can't even copy music tracks from cds to the program from which you are supposed to load music into the ipod anymore.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Posted at 10:55 pm by Mrsnl4082
Monday, December 29, 2003
I feel bad today. I really feel like a guilty person. I wanted to know yesterday why laila and peter were going to the city together and wouldn't tell me. They started to make up all of these excuses and reasons why they had things to do today that. I was really hurt because i had no i dea what would be going on between me and them that would cause them to feel as though they would need to lie to me. I think that i am good enough friends with them that we could talk about things like this together. I just think that maybe they don't realize that it hurts me and that i feel as though my own friends can't be honest with me. lately i have suspected that maybe they don't want me arround as much which i don't understand. I suppose i can learn to live with this but i wish that in general i could converse more honestly with them about it.
So the reason i feel guilty is that i know i shouldn't accuse people of lying to me and i know perfectly well that they have every right to do whatever they feel like doing with eachother.
Posted at 12:51 pm by Mrsnl4082
Wednesday, December 10, 2003
Oh my god i have never been so tired in my life. This is ridiculous. I could barely stand up at work i was so freking tired and i felt as though all night i just couldn't get anything done. So after miraculously escaping work i returned homw where i am much looking forward to have in two days off of school !!!!!!!!!!!!!! YES
and.... My birthday is on sunday i'm so excited
Posted at 10:05 pm by Mrsnl4082
Tuesday, December 09, 2003
Allright well i've calmed down a lot since writing that last entry. I had a good time a rehersal although Joan needs to pull the candycane out of her ass. I had to rush around all afternoon/evening from school to home to rehersal to work which was exhausting, and which i will end up doing again tomorrow, but at least i know that i will be in relatively good spirits!
Once again sleeping is going to be the virtual highlight of my day. I wish i could freaking figure out how i'm gonna end up seeing the hard nut because it is soo funny. Whatever i'm sure i'll find a way. In the mean time I'm so excited for my Birthday!!!
Posted at 10:07 pm by Mrsnl4082
Well, so today was difficult. It started out good at least with my eggnog laté from Pete's. The day soon got old however. I felt really dumb in AP Gov because petrocco did not enjoy anything i said to him. In French class a barely knew my lines well presenting my piece, and i was frowned upon. In drama however my day was ruined. Nikki decides to harass me about my gloves which iu had just purchased and which i thought were quite cool. She starts telling me how bad they are and how they're just so feminine and how i "people" had had doubts about my sexuality in the first place ( which i could care less about because there have beenpeople trying to tell me i have seemed feminine before <jessica> and i really don't think that that is ok to do because i wouldn't try to make someone feel bad for what they look/act like and even if i was homosexual i wouldn't like anyone talking about me like that either)and that my gloves just really didn't look masculine enough. She kept telling me that i could only as a guy wear leather gloves. Well what the hell got her so fucked up is what i'd like to know. I think that she needs to realize how shallow it is of her to try to make fun of me for the GLOVES i wear! It's terrible. I felt really awful all day. I never really am able to convey to people when i am really upset because i joke arround so much. But i was very upset to day and i'm depressed that i can never convey that to people. So anyway i had a few other bad things that happened today but they're not too important. I get to look foreward to a VERY busy evening. Ahhhhh its hard not to have much time to get things done.
Posted at 03:11 pm by Mrsnl4082
Monday, December 08, 2003
Hello!
This is my first entry in my journal. I hope that i will write more entries as time goes on. I cannot ensure however that i will remember to write them but hopefully i will. So i have started this because i will now have more time to spend doing other things than explaining my self via instant messages. What a great thing. Yes well let's see what is going on in my personal life. Oh yeah what the fuck there was this lady today at ABros that came the fuck in right as i was doing my physics homework at like 8:30 and was all "oh you need to help me pick out some frames" so i did and she had like 50,000 pictures and i had to freaking help her for days which actually was 30 min but that was obnly cuz we closed, so i feel as though she has seriously wasted my time and that is bad.
Anyway
So i enjoyed watching La Cible today on TV5
And i'm glad that i got all my HW done
Sleeping is going to me wonderful tonight especially because nicholasa made my bed really nicely like she does.
yep well thats about it
Posted at 11:45 pm by Mrsnl4082
